I love the beginning of relationships! The long -getting-to-know-you type phone calls at night and the phone messages. How lovely I say. All of a sudden the relationship is not like that. They don't leave messages anymore. I think that i am about to end the relationship with John. He is not what I want or really need in a relationship, but maybe a friendship. We haven't "been" together in over month, by my choice, and we gop by for days without talking because of "other" things that I care not to talk about right now. I just have a problem ending relationships. I think I should probably wait right before school starts back so that I can have a valid reason to me. Who knows he might do the deed before me. He just got a new job across the bridge in Arkansas which menas that he won't be in Memphis as much if any. He needs to get his life back in order before he can even attempt to try and be with me. I am just really lonely when I am not in a relationship. I am so depressed and confused. I doubt he calls for another two or three days. If he calls before then I will tell you so. cheer me up and help me out