I know that I have not been here in awhile. I have just been too busy adjusting to this schedule that I have locked myself into. I lot has happened outside of school too. On the second day of school, I met someone on the way to school. He gave me his number, but I didn't call. I instead gave him my phone number. He called a couple of days later. After that we talked for hours at a time. It was goping alright, until lthis past MOnday. He doesn't work on Mondays so I decided that I wuold go over his place instead. I kinda knew what was gonna happen, but I didn't realize the the backlash that would occur. We "did" what we did and then he got up and got dressed and went to sleep on the other side of the room. I was a little confused, but I was cool because I was sleepy too. He got up a couple of hours later and said he had something to do with his sister. We haven't really spoken since except in passing. This week I have been seeing him talking to this other chick. Yesterday I didn't see her or him. I think that they hooked up or he was running ;late so he told her to wait for him. I hat feeling like this. It's not even the fact that I had sex with him, but the the whole afterwards. He hasn't called because I damn sure refuse to call him. I am moving on lokking for the next guy to light my fire. :) Although I try not to, I can't stop thinking about him. Yesterday morning in my only class of the day, I was feeling nervous and upset and anxious. I was nervous because I was first up to give my speech for the day, which is my first speech of the semester. I was upset about the assshole guy and that chick. I was anxious because ut was my last class of the day and I had planned on going shopping after class, which I did. All of a sudden before I walk up to the podium to do my speech this guy walked in. He was cute, but I though he was gay. I don't know why because he doesn't look gay at all. :\. Anyway I just let it go. All of a sudden the last person assigned to give a speech didn't show up, so he volunteered to give his speech, because he hadn't yet. He talked about how college was a whole new world for him because iof th eschool and neighborhood he is from. I just fell for him. I haven't had a crush in years. Maybe this crush will help me get over the way asshole treated me. I am trying to think of a way to get to talk to him, because he comes to class at the last minute and sits on th eother side of the room by the door which helps him get up out of class quick. I will think of something. I am gonna go now because I have talked alot. See Ya!